Konflik Dalaman

    Rare tak aku tulis entry baru lepas baru sehari update? Heh. I know. So, Hi Assalammualaikum my pals. Esok exam. I know. Bahasa Melayu. I know. Dulu BM aku tak pernah tak dapat A (eh?) sekarang nak dapat A untuk BM pergh gila bapak. I know. Korang mesti sihat kan? I know.

   Im having a konflik dalaman. Yes obviously. Hahaha. Always been. Sejak aku jadi remaja ni macam macam benda aku fikir. Macam macam kecuali Chemistry, Addmaths, Physics dan hal-hal lain :p

   Pernah tak korang tengah excited berangan nak jadi apa after 34times tukar cita-cita then cerita dekat family then they object your new ambition? I know. Does it hurt? I know.

   So... Aku nak jadi apa? Cikgu. Cikgu apa? Cikgu Bahasa Inggeris (dont laugh at me. At least i have a dream... A song to sing) Why? Because i want to produce a generation which has confidence to speak in English. Not saying that these generations yang tengah hidup takdak confidence cakap omputeh. Well youngsters sekarang ni lagi ramai kut pandai cakap. Tapi in my community, they are lack of confidence. Please understand.

    What did they asked me? They asked me why wouldnt I choose to be a Doctor or Engineer. Yeah as if I can be them in 5seconds. Lawak betui.

*Sigh*

    Apa yang risau sangat ni? Oh... Gaji. Ofcourse. But heres my plan, I'll be an excellent teacher, buat business sampingan, and marry a rich guy. Okay tak? hahahaha. Atleast i have plan okay. Just because i said i wanted to marry a rich guy, that doesnt mean I'm a Pisau Cukur. Siapa taknak... Heh. But first, jadi cikgu bernawaitukan Allah and budak budak dulu.

   Apa yang aku risau sangat ni? Oh... Keredhaan orang tua. Memang penting.

  Tapi... Orang kata? Follow your instinct and passion. Tapi... Let's say aku ikut instinct and... my obviously-mainstream-asian-thinking-parents tak berapa suka. Then pointer aku  tak hebat. Nanti mesti diorang kata "Hah tu lah. Lain kali dengar kata kami. Kami lagi awal makan garam"

   Tapi... Cuba kalau aku ikut kehendak parents dan... masih. Pointer aku tak sehebat mana. Nanti mesti kecewa juga pengakhirannya.

   Kindly if you have any advice, please tell me. I love getting advice. It builds me up ^_^

YA ALLAH KUATKAN IMANKU. HAHAHAHAHA

One thing that im certainly sure about. Kah kah!

                                                                                                                                    

                                                                                                                                    

Thanks for reading, Bye Assalammualaikum.